my primary favorite's cable channel lineup: cspan, cnn, fox
news, msnbc, cspan 2
time warner cable music: soundscapes, sounds of the season
august 28, 2010 if "race" is the wrong word, PEOPLE ARE
STILL NOT THE SAME. body types, head structure, fast twitch muscles,
etc. its not just culture either, there are different types of human
beings under the umbrella of being human. are all dogs the same? NO. and
i know better to use the word "breed" when talking about humans, what a
reaction that gets!
my mother told me one day i came home from kindergarten and she asked
what color was a new friend, i replied "i don't know." but as an adult
to strip a person of their ethnicity by not recognizing it is just as
bad as being racist maybe. my color or race or whatever sets me apart
from others and im proud of that. i always notice race and color. when i
walk into a room i instantly notice how many of each "race" i see in
that room. and i will sometimes whisper "we're the only black people in
here." or "there aint no white people here" (but thats rare as there is
ALWAYS a white girl around LOL). to not be aware of that is a form of
ignorance.
plus even though i act the same everywhere, behavior is adjusted
depending where you are and who you are with. if im out hanging with
black folks, i communicate and body language as if with black folks.
people of other "races" may not understand or feel this communication
protocol so i dont use it when around other ethnicities. and the other
way around also, if im in a room full of white folks. its a way to
maximize communication to understand who and what you are talking to and
to have a feel for what they are use to receiving.
now to dislike or hate or hold a grudge or draw hardlined prejudices
along these "racial" lines is not "good." there is a difference between
recognizing the differences and holding that difference "against"
someone. yeah we are different and we should be able to celebrate and
recognize the differences without any kind of "negative" feelings.
and actually, if you are a racist and you are sincere about being racist
who am i to say that its "wrong?" hell as long as you dont touch me or
break any laws, you are free to be as racist as you want! who is to say
that it wont be a racist group who didnt mix itself ethnically that will
be the one to have that special gene to fight that incurable disease and
saves humanity? there is no right or wrong in the long run. only
outcomes.
i understand folks trying to end racial hatred or whatever, but to
eliminate race by eliminating the definitions aint gonna get it. like
abolishing the word nigger. how silly is that? soon as you make a stand
that you dont use that word, you make it a weapon that can be used
"against" you.
slowly humanity is making progress to a higher consciousness and
understanding and one day we will have all this race and sex stuff 90%
worked out. and it will take everybody's efforts and ideas to get it
done. in the big big big picture of this universe and all the universes
that have ever existed, its all gonna work out one way or another and
until we know why we are here and whats this all for there is no good,
bad, postive, negative, right or wrong except on the individual level
thank you for this opportunity to express, i so love to write... august 24, 2010
Jeffery Jefferytv Mitchell i can try to answer for why i am spiritual but dont believe in god. god
is a supreme being that is not only separate from our universe, but is
above it and controls it. i do not believe such an entity exists.
i believe there are interactions
between our consciousness' that we are not aware of yet. i believe that
feeling you get with a group; church, when cheering at a football game
or getting it in a club is a form or spirituality. i believe there is
human created spirituality.
i dont believe spiritual means supernatural. spirituality to me is a
network that connects everything in the universe that we have not
detected yet. we communicate with each other in ways we are not aware of
yet.
as far as "spirits" go, im leaning towards individual consciousness each
having an energy that is unique and has information. not sure if i
believe it can actively interact or just exist as a spirit or essence of
someone.
i believe in faith. faith works and is for real. i believe you would get
the same results if you put your faith in god or a suitcase. its your
faith that moves.
i believe in religion as the organization, ritualization, ceremony,
reverence, art, prayers, archectecture, fellowship, etc. religion is the
organized structure that when not perverted is a good thing.
i believe in meditation and "prayer" as they work with faith and somehow
when individual consciousness focus on something there is an effect on
the whole because of the unknown connectivity we have with each other (a
spirituality network)
xxxx xxxxxxxx xxxxxx
Jeffery, it pretty much sounds like you believe on God, you just express
it differently. Jeffery Jefferytv Mitchell
@xxxx please explain, i dont see how after i stated what i
believe god is and that i dont believe in that. maybe if you believe
what im describing is god, maybe what you believe in is not god.
August 23, 2010
i think i just figured out how the dailys will fit in with my new
jefferytv.com/blog.
The blog will be for the polished, edited refined publishings. and the
dailys will be for my raw writings. like now, i was creating a blog but
it was still too raw to even put into a draft as im still figuring out
how i want to tell the story. yesterday at the
blackskeptics.org
meeting i met a young black male from compton who had never discussed
"atheism" or non-belief with anyone. he had never met anyone who openly
acknowledged they did not believe in god.
he was young and cool and hipped hopped out down to his jeans and
sunglasses and phone. its just hitting me how important and special
yesterdays meeting was. this was direct evidence that he and his kind
exist. and i mean he was cool and slick and you could tell by his style
he was up to date with the trends and happenings within the black
community.
it seemed a lot of his questions (and he had good for real questions)
centered around family and kids. the what if's of inter-faith
relationships and raising kids without faith.
it reminds me how far ive come and where im at with my atheism. wearing
it on my shoulder so to speak. its normal for me now, sometimes i forget
that its a VERY VERY big deal in a large part of the country and world.
im doing this with dr sikivu hutchinson whose father is famous it seems
cause every time we meet with someone they do the eyes get big "thats
your dad" and i aint never heard of him.
anyways we are planning an event at
lucy florence in los angeles to raise awareness and we were
brainstorming ideas and homey maybe without even realizing it had more
than one very good idea because of his insight within the community. he
knew people, personalities and places that could be very helpful with
our endeavor.
and then today i get a
video sent to me via youtube from
Freethinkers Chronicles
and it is so homemade professionallish that i was very impressed. the
research and message was solid and his production is perfect for the
audience i wish to present i too. allan kenneth paine. oh yeah i
should reach out to this guy...
sunset junction was good. it was a much bigger festival than i expected.
it was huge spread between santa monica and sunset blvds. very very very
attractive crowd. good music, tons of vendors. i mean tons and tons of
vendors and aggressive too. but it was in a spirited way most times.
lots and lots of food.
the ohio players is old, but they got down. they represented ohio well
right down to the break in the show when the drummer told everybody that
the first thing they do is thank jesus before he introduced everybody. i
love ohio and ohio people.
i caught my fave song of fishbone suffering passing by that stage going
to see the ohio players. bitches brew with blackbyrd started late so me
and team oxnard #2 left to catch OP. but they started late late also.
orgone finished their set with cosmic slop.
july 23, 2010
is there ANY possibility that YOU and the spirit of love and the
people around you could have been the catalyst for such a change? could
it just have been time for a change? where was the lord when you were
having these problems? did the lord say "ok, today i will unburden the
bossman" or was it you who decided deep down that it was time for a
change and used your own "power of faith" in god (not god) to make
things happen?
how do you know it was the lord? did he talk to you? did something
happen to give you an indication that a supernatural event occurred?
i believe in faith and that faith works. we get power and energy from
faith (no matter what its in) and not from any external entity in the
sky. i believe we make our own miracles...
people gonna say im not a believer and that since i dont believe i dont
understand. but i would really like for someone to explain to me these
things and not be defensive, dismissive or beg me just to believe and
except without reason....
love is highest
i saw it first in my great grandmother. how everything in the family
passed threw her house in some way or form. i saw how much work and love
and drama and kids and food and church and everything she did. i was in
church with her every single sunday i stayed over her house and i saw
her praise the lord with all her heart. i understand now she was
celebrating and fueling her faith. singing and gaining energy, peace of
mind, meditation. but when she got home and was handling us kids and
business, it was clear to me god ain't have nothing to do with that. it
was on her strength, experience and knowledge that we rode, though she
would thank god for it all day long.
i believe ive gotten most of what i am from my parents. knowledge and
strength that was passed to them from many generations and cultures.
thousands of years of magic and miracles and love has been passed down
to us by that which has evolved before us.
@Harriet thanks for your response. I think in a way we are saying the
same thing about faith. hope i aint get too excited about this! LOL...
Tee Cooksey : Jeffery Mitchell: Thank you for the above query. I was
driving when your comment came across my blackberry, in route to bible
study however, I was very moved by your questions and couldn’t wait to
get settled so I could address them accordingly and respectively.
First, let me say YES, there is a possibility that Derrick, the Spirit
of Love and the people around him were catalyst for such a change
because God (with a capital G) is love and He is also a Spirit. 1John
4:8 states, “Whoever does not love, does not know God, because God is
love.”
Second, in another passage of scripture (John 4:24), the writer states,
“God is Spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth”
Third, the people around him were in fact catalysts and/or vessels whom
God used to prompt the change which came about—particularly his woman,
Sherry, whom I know, is SAVED, Sanctified and filled with Holy
Ghost---however she never judged or gave up on him, but remained
steadfast in prayer for his soul!
Fourth, with respect to your question, “could it just have been time for
a change?” Yes, it was time for a change, however you must understand
that the things which belong to us as human beings, we’ve been endowed
to do in and of ourselves, meaning, there are certain things we have
power over…and those things take little to no effort at all, but then
there are things such as breathing, whereby we must rely on the One who
is the GIVER and SUSTAINER of life to do, as well as to bring about the
change you’re witnessing in Derrick by the very testimony that’s coming
from his mouth.
Fifth, concerning your questions, “where was the lord when you were
having these problems? did the lord say "ok, today i will unburden the
bossman" or was it you who decided deep down that it was time for a
change and used your own "power of faith" in god (not god) to make
things happen?
Jeffrey, it’s quite evident that the LORD was present when he was having
problems, seeing as though he is an over-comer and has lived to testify
of the LORDS goodness and sustaining power.
Yes and No Jeffrey concerning whether Derrick decided on his own that it
was time for a change. No because the bible teaches us that “No man can
come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him.” (John 6:44)
This means that the drawing is totally beyond our control. On the other
hand, Yes, because while he didn’t decide the day or hour in which he
would receive his salvation, (since this was already planned before the
foundations of the world), he did in fact answer the call and said YES,
I’m ready for a change LORD. So you see it’s two-fold, God calls and
those who accept the call, have a willing spirit to say YES to the call.
Sixth, “how did he know it was the LORD, did something happen to give
him an indication that a supernatural event occurred.” Jeffrey you just
know, and if I were to try to explain it, I’d be spinning my wheels
since that which I’m speaking and that which Derrick experienced (and is
experiencing) when he accepted the call, are spiritual and would be hard
for you to understand or even comprehend in the natural since the
scripture states:
“These things we also speak, not in words which man’s wisdom teaches but
which the Holy Spirit teaches, comparing spiritual things with
spiritual. But the natural man does not receive the things of the Spirit
of God, for they are foolishness to him; nor can he know them, because
they are spiritually discerned” (1 Corinthians 2: 13-14).
Seventh, it’s good that you believe in faith and that it works however,
it sounds as if you have faith in yourself and not in GOD and therefore
you’re operating under a different set of principles and beliefs which
will only work for so long because there will come a time when you will
recognize that you cannot sustain yourself…and you WILL look to the
hills from whence cometh your help because all of your help comes from
the LORD, whether you realize it or not. And just like there was an
appointed day/hour for Derrick, there will be an appointed day for you
as well…in fact, I think the hour is now..which is probably why I felt
so compelled to respond to you in detail.
Finally, I wouldn’t say that you’re not a believer but more so an
agnostic, which is someone who believes that there is not enough
evidence to prove or disprove whether or not, God exists. And that’s
ok…you’re not deficient because you’re different. We’re all different.
And God is not angry with you for having questions---He wants you to ask
questions and those of us who take time to study the WORD and not just
go to church and have a religious emotional experience on Sunday know
that the scripture teaches us to “always be ready to give an answer to
everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you…” (1Peter
3:15).
So in summation, I feel that you asked the right questions…that’s what
an intelligent individual does. I’m the same way, I don’t take anyone’s
word…I read it, study it, research it, pray on it, and then teach I it.
That being said, I think you were hitting on all the right points
however your points are misguided! I will pray for you Jeffrey…that the
Father of Lights draws you to Him, (as he did with Derrick) and cause
His light to shine in the dark places of your life. I will pray that He
removes the scales from your eyes in order that you might see and accept
the TRUTH and I will pray that you come into the knowledge of who you
are in Christ Jesus! Additionally, if you truly desire to know not just
the God in heaven but the God who resides everywhere, who created the
heavens and the earth and everything that dwells within, I’d be
delighted to minister His plan of Salvation to you. For this is my
vocation…winning souls for Christ and definitely one in which I take
pleasure in and strive daily to walk worthy of my calling.
God Bless you my brother. I hope the above information helps! Tee Jeffery
Pure-Funk Mitchell @tee WOW! thank you thank you thank you for your
response. i read it the first day and have been glancing over and
thinking about it the last few days. and im still digesting. there are
points you make that i do not agree with or i think "incorrect" but i
dont want to go point -counter point (yet) as i want to absorb and learn
and try to see it as ... See Moreyou do. so i really do thank you and i
LOVE my blackberry!! LOL ok i may stereotype but a church and jesus
lovin black female with a blackberry gettin facebook mobile updates on
her way to bible study? see, i need to open my eyes!!
You know I preach that faith works. "Faith in what" is where yall get it
wrong. Stripping yourself, people and the family around you, the earth
and life of its "magical" capabilities and accomplishments.
Because of evolution, it is physically impossible
for there to be a better place than earth for human beings.
i'm assuming the traditional definition of "heaven" as "a place your
soul goes to be with god after you die." If a "soul" or spirit exists,
it is not human. There has to be a transformation to something that has
never been observed and for which no evidence exists.
Correction: If a "soul" or spirit exists, it is not a human being. It
could be "human" though.
dance? in my day we use to call it "shouting" and it was definitely not
considered a dance. we use to get in trouble if we mocked shouting or if
we put a little funky sumn in it. and you did not dance in church! the
dance you do in the club and shouting in church invoke different
feelings and emotions. its hard to get get nasty down in it doing a
dance you see your mother and grandmother do with deep reverence.
but its all about how the physical rhythm effects the body of some types
of people. and this may be what i love most about being black and having
this "ability" evolved in me so deeply. (and no, i don't believe people
are all the same). in fact, i got videos and though i do more dancing
than shouting in my groove you can see the "trance" or meditation or
yoga of it all. im at the point now i can go completely away and
experience a type of physical orgasm.
amplification seems to assist in this too. stimulating the senses
feeling the pound of the beats and instruments in syncopated rhythms and
looking around and seeing everything and everyone around you in a
perfect rhythm. ive had that more than a few times at p-funk shows. when
ive looked around and the whole room was gettin it and we knew we was
gettin it doing our own individual thing as a group in mental, physical
and spiritual harmony.
i am sooo happy i grew up in the black church sittin behind the organist
and experiencing this. years of study and practice of grooving mentally
and physically. basically being taught from an early age how to "go
away" with a group in public like that with that kind of energy and
celebration. having rock and roll being birthed in my backyard (ohio). i
was doomed to be what i am. the more i learn the more im seeing i had no
choice but to be funky...
feb 16, 2010
"To say Thank you is not enough. You have helped me discover an
underlying theme for my dissertation. My research focuses on the
displacement of residents due to gentrification in the urban
landscape. A theist who maintains that God makes no mistakes, must
therefore admit that everyone is created for a purpose. There is
room on the planet for all God's creations; and there is no
justification for the homeless man, woman, or child."
"All of the religous morals that people claim; have little effect
against an economic, political, and social system that values things
above people. I'm not going to say "Allah bless you" (Smile), instead
know that I wish you and all those you know and love more happiness than
their minds and bodies could dream of. Rest easy knowing that you helped
inspire a brother, I hope my research will help those in need. Salaam
(peace)."
-rayburne
feb 2, 2010
ohio niggas even stand still on beat.
i was able to be alone with you in the room.
on pure curiosity, how can you not watch
the tea party convention on c-span?
jan 28, 2010 From a recent facebook post: Jeffery Jefferytv Mitchell how does your faith explain a compassionate protecting god and recent tragic events? are you truly satisfied by the way your belief system answers this and ANY other questions that you are confronted with? if you are, that's all that counts and no man or questioning should ever trouble you. and that's where i am with m...y beliefs as an atheist, never troubled...
Andrea Gilliam-Washington The Bible speaks of wars and rumors of wars and also various calamity happening in the "last days" Human death is not so paramount to God.
Death is just a mere truncation to the number of days that we (thought we) have left. As if our God even owes us a 'tomorrow'. To me, death is a mere shadow of reality. They're facing their judgement,....... ... See Morethe way the rest of us will.
The question doesn't trouble me.....*maybe* and I use the maybe loosely your non belief troubles me. But again, we all have choices and "free will". Did I answer?! ;)
Jeffery Jefferytv Mitchell the question was deliberately worded as to be a "question" that can only be answered by one to one's self. but since we gettin technical, i will evaluate.
you refer to the bible as if its the ultimate authority, like its guaranteed. i can show you scripture that even you disagree with. you then use the bible to demean human life in god's eyes and as a whole. and infer that we are blessed that god even lets us live at all. this does not seem logical as to why he would give us life in the first place at all...
the statement "To me, death is a mere shadow of reality" is poetic but means absolutely nothing, and its not even accurate. death is reality not a shadow of it. ... See More
as far as them "facing judgement" thats a major assumption you are making based on faith. how you reconcile that with a compassionate god who would kill 100,000 and injure (not kill to send to judgement) is a whole other discussion.
i admit i fired this post directly at the doubts i know believers have. and i commend you for your honesty in using "*maybe*." that "maybe" basically makes my case. cause ii have no doubts or maybes cause i dont believe in anything that i dont undestand.
the icing on this cake is you have NO PROOF OR EVIDENCE for anything you say, you take it on faith. now you may say that i dont either, but i didnt make any claims about reality. nov 15, 2009
"If a man is caught in the act of raping a
young woman who is not engaged, he must pay fifty pieces of silver to
her father. Then he must marry the young woman because he violated her,
and he will never be allowed to divorce her." (Deuteronomy 22:28-29 NLT)
"However, you may purchase male or female slaves from among the
foreigners who live among you. You may also purchase the children of
such resident foreigners, including those who have been born in your
land. You may treat them as your property, passing them on to your
children as a permanent inheritance. You may treat your slaves like
this, but the people of Israel, your relatives, must never be treated
this way." (Leviticus 25:44-46 NLT)
oct 4, 2009
i have witnessed and felt the power of both
faith and love. I am an atheist but I have faith in spiritual things. I
am not a skeptic. "redirecting" the power and energy of faith to focus
on ourselves and not in the sky will eliminate 95% of the worlds
problems and create a heaven on earth.
I can't think of anything that can replace the power faith has in human
beings, besides love which is also a faith. "Redidrecting" faith will
make humanity "better" cause we would treat each other and everything
around us as we treat god. From this our morals will come. Like a
"natural morality"
the goal of life is survival, to continue "forever." not for one form of
it to be delivered to a better place forsaking all that life in its many
forms has evolved to be. the goal of the bible is to discard mother
earth, all life and all sh...e and we have created for a unseen unproven
"better" place. the goal of the bible is the end of life.
devoting your life to god and living under pre-determined philosophies
is not living, its existing. accepting you can never go or be "higher"
than that is not fully living your life or utilizing your consciousness.
so when people say by bel...ieving in god they loose nothing if wrong
when they die as opposed to non-believers, I say your not really living
your life fully with that mindset.
sept 19, 2009
To get to the point when you are living life according to self
developed "rules" and understandings. To have love for everything with
confidence and no fears according to your own moral code. Not having to
answer to anything in any universe for what one believes, be it in life
or at death.
I have grown to be free to place my faith in whatever I want and shape
it however I want answering to nothing and there is an euphoric freedom
in this. I believe conscious freedom is the most grand attainable
thing.To find harmony with everything based on one's own beliefs and not
following or bowing down to anything is the heaven many people seek
a life and an act like that is not in harmony with everything
around it. It causes a friction to some degree.
to be in harmony with everything around you living according to
your own inherent personal moral code without fear of any kind of
ultimate judgement.
to live under no one's or any god's understanding of how you
should live but your own. You don't have to go to a book or any
kind of spiritual leader for guidance or answers. It becomes all
but natural and is revealed in your every act, right down to the
way you move. Its a confidence that everyone can see. There is no
guilt or worry cause you are not trying to live up to an external
standard.
You place yourself and everything around you at the same level or
higher than what a lot of people call god. Everything becomes
"god" and a part of god and you treat everything with that kind
of reverence, and you are in harmony with it all. Achieving this
understanding during one's life is heaven on earth for this
harmony protects you from "evil" and the things
around you will come to your rescue when you need them. Harmony
also means taking care of your physical body: eating healthy,
being active physically and mentally. Always continuing to learn
as life and your environment changes, etc...
july 26, 2009
http://beinghuman.blogs.fi/2008/01/13/the_rest_of_the_best_in_youtube_atheism~3571236/
june 14, 2009
im at work chilling, listening to game 5 of the nba
championship via the internet. fixin to go to lunch in a bit and i will
update this entry later.
something from awhile back; written: march 31, 2009-
well, well, well. what can i say? i have a job that i seem to enjoy
(so far anyways), in an economy that is as bad as its been in years.
i hope this gig lasts, i really do. i love my badge. ive always
loved badges that beep you access and opens doors. this badge has a
cross on it. first time i ever had one of those.
if this place is getting faith based government funding i cant be
mad at that program. in fact, i think faiths of all kinds should
apply for funding if they qualify. even a faith based organization
of no faith. seems only fair to me that people of all faiths and
without be eligible for this funding. but then again as i think
about what the deeper ramifications of what faith based can be, i
may re-think the whole program. either way, im happy and not mad at
anybody or anything right now, and all is good.
funny too is my new found tone and wording in these dailys. im not
trying to antagonize anybody and i kinda know that the people i work
with will be eventually exposed to the internet jeffery. a jeffery i
decided a long time ago would be wild, untamed and restrictionless
in his expression of his beliefs and passions. i all but vowed to
make this a place where i could be completely free. funny how time
and age changes you. how much more compromising i am now. how much
more mellow i am about life and everything in it.
sure i still have my passions, and they mean alot to me. but maybe,
just maybe they dont move me as they once did. having had the
opportunity to deeply experience my deepest passions already in my
life, it does feel as if some of my drive to accomplish has
diminished. im satisfied with my existence and am cool with just
about everything.
and maybe the election of the first black u.s. president has
something to do with that. it seems now im confident that anything
can happen in life and that im close enough and am a part of it. i
mean, i shook his hand. he is not some far away figure to me,
nothing in life is. i feel i can "get at" any part i want in life. i
feel equal to obama as far as talents and ability, whether i am or
not.
there has been a regime change.
back to now; watching president barack obama i am completely impressed.
completely. it is so refreshing to see a communicative, intellectual
person as leader of the free world. someone who isnt afraid to be wrong
or corrected. someone who can compromise and not feel his power
threatened by his ability to be fair and reasoning. in reality, it
should not be a big deal as most of the people i hang around do this.
but for the president of the united states to do this may be
unprecedented. and maybe, just maybe it has something to do with him
being the first non-white male in this position.
the los angeles lakers have just won the nba championship. i love los
angeles (the city) and i think kobe is the best basketball player ever.
i wouldn't say that i am a laker fan, but i do root for the home team.
hopefully the championship parade will be on wed or thur when im off
work.
its sunday night, im in a windowless room in a basement under a parking
structure of a hospital. alone, by myself for 5 hours i will not see
another human being. i will take calls from nurses and doctors and
assist them with their computing needs, and that will be a refreshing
break from this solitude.
i love the cafeteria here. the food may not be the best in the world,
and that's not to say its the worst or even bad. what makes it special
is that i get a discount so its cheap and i can get freshly cooked real
whole foods. not processed products put together to be food. i eat
vegetables and rice and meats. stuff cabbages and things of the such. i
even get fruit for dessert. its much better eating than frozen fast food
heat ups. and i feel better because of it.
im watching my weight as i was on a binge for a long while there. at one
point i weighed in at 196, and that was probably before thanksgiving
2008.
i just got a call from a user. i enjoy helping users 99% of the time and
frankly even the 1% i dont enjoy i cant say that i dislike it. i like
communicating and engaging with different personalities. so many varied
personalities, cultures, dialects, accents, emotions, etc. and ok i
guess a factor may be that 90% of the calls are from females, as was the
last 2 i just took. i put that voice on them and its fun. i use it to
calm and slow them down. to bring down their volume and energy if they
are too excited to relay the info i need to me
as i was saying, back in nov 2008 i kinda started eating like a fool and
enjoying everything from pizza to ice cream to pop tarts. from 196lbs to
around 230 over a few months time. ive been eating sensibly for about 2
weeks now and i weighed in at 222 today. which i am pretty happy about
at this point. in fact, over my weekend which comes in the middle of the
week, i didnt eat like an idiot diabetic with a death wish. i had pop
tarts one night and i ate all 8 of them blueberry bastards and ofcourse,
my face broke out and my weight went up a bit. freakin sugar boy.
may 13, 2009
ive been talking about religion slash atheism almost exclusively the last few weeks if not months.
not saying good or bad, up or down but maybe too much of one thing is
never good.
working slash employment is good. ive said before im institutionalized.
my human body becomes a better functioning machine while working. and i
dont mind the money at all.
i could talk and youtube about the NBA. im totally hooked on TNT and the
whole thing. kobe vs lebron. los angeles vs ohio. the place where i live
and love vs the place i grew up and am made of. freakin ohio again, all
we heard was ohio ohio ohio during the election. do i sound like im
complaining? i am sort of teasingly i guess.
and i should make videos on a regular basis. get in an established
pattern and develop a schedule. to attain a "following" for what?
readership? to spread my philosophy? to sustain a lifestyle financially?
do i want to play the game? i do enjoy blogging or video logging the
youtubians. i own youtubians.com i think even. twittering is booming
now. would i "sell out" to an advertiser?
march 25, 2009
i have been recently reminded how beautiful and elegant and solemn
catholicism is. the finest art in the world may be of that even. no
wonder i wanted to be catholic in the seventh grade. the morning
prayer over the p.a. the style in which the religion is expressed. mass
is meditative. i used to like going to mass. especially in that big
church. the prayers are beautiful and i just realized my favorite comes
from there. my favorite pictures are of that. i went to rome for
god's sake!!! wow i just realized that im in love with the catholic
religion. or maybe the "church." i stood in st peter's. wow it
just hit me how long ive been studying or experiencing catholicism
and how far i went to experience it. the farthest ive ever traveled was
to rome which is the deepest you can go regarding catholicism. wow.
far different than how we did it in pittsburgh and alliance. black folks
havin church. church music conventions was how i met people from
different parts of the country. detroit big city negroes my age.
the magic is in the ability to appreciate the depth and understanding
and sensitivity of both cultures.
The percentage of Americans claiming no religion, which jumped from
8.2 in 1990 to 14.2 in 2001, has now increased to 15 percent. Given
the estimated growth of the American adult population since the last
census from 207 million to 228 million, that reflects an additional
4.7 million "Nones." Northern New England has now taken over from
the Pacific Northwest as the least religious section of the country,
with Vermont, at 34 percent "Nones," leading all other states by a
full 9 points. "Many people thought our 2001 finding was an
anomaly," Keysar said. We now know it wasn't.
The 'Nones' are the only group to have grown in every state of the
Union."
American Religious Identification Survey 2008
i am definitely caught up in the news cycle once again. the stimulus
package coverage is tantalizing. notice
whenever obama talks he has his head turned either right or left.
he never dead-on looks into the camera. in the debates not too many of
them dead on looked until they wanted to stress that final point or
deepest sentiment. but my beloved sarah palin looked dead-on into the
camera the very first time she could and that made me scream. and thats
why i love her.
this is a past venting: im
just not use to being managed that way. i catch myself thinking that
im 40 times smarter than this person instructing me so primitively.
remedial management protocol may be my issue. i feel that in that
same situation i would be able to coordinate effectively without
using old fashioned outdated management techniques. certain key
phrases bug me to "i got my people." that one got me today, and i
actually commented "your people?" i was under the impression that i
was to get instruction from the person i had been working with, who
probably spoiled me cause he has a style of leadership that i
harmonized with.
poorly coordinated managing also bugs me. i dont like a lot of
people telling me what to do. i seem to prefer clear instruction.
and i definitely dont need the shit especially at this payrate. i
was ready to leave and believe me i will walk out no problem and
accept the consequences.
its also hard for me to sit there like the person instructing me is
telling me something i need to know when it is not. i may be
impatient or irritable at times, as i know i can be and handle
anything there is.
thank you for letting me release. its time to go back now and i will
have a new attitude. its hard for me to appear enthusiastic about
doing something that i feel is not impressive or beneath me.
another thing i wonder about is it seems our economy is based on
economic growth. there is only so much an economy can grow. it also
seems that debt is encouraged. they are asking people to go out and get
a loan and start a business, buy a house or a car. one of the major
points of this recession recovery is to free up the credit markets so
that people can get this debt, and its encouraged! is our economy based
on debt and or spending?
im not trying to come down on somebody turning their time of mourning,
but some questions should be answered at such a difficult time. a pastor
in illinious was shot dead during a church service inside the church, a
house of god. he deflected a bullet with his bible but was still shot
and killed while his congregation looked on.
the people of the church said in the aftermath they began to pray. my
question is, pray for what? god allowed this to happen and according to
most believers has a plan for all of us. so what could the people be
praying for or about? an all powerful god signed off on the events so
what possibly could the people pray about?
we or the media would never confront someone with this kind of hard
question during a time like this. im a hardcore believer that people
should be able to articulate and defend their philosophy at any time,
but to hit somebody up after a tragic event like this is bad karma.
simple empathy tells me that. people can believe whatever they want and
for the most part believers in religion and god should not "bother" me,
and mostly they dont. then why is it that i have such a strong desire to
challenge their beliefs? i mean i know its incorrect as the day is long
but does it effect me? other than the irritation of hearing something i
"know" is complete lunacy being touted as truth and reality. do their
lives and actions effect me? why should i care what they believe? no
matter how insane sounding i think it is.
is it that i have a true desire to see mankind succeed and or be a
better place? i definitely feel that faith, religion and the blindly
following bible is not making us a better species. i truly do feel when
we get over the god thing we will be a tremendous enlightened people and
the world and everything in it will be better off.
from an e-mail i sent today:
booze and loneliness, sounds like a tv movie. you got me thinking
about loneliness. i havent been lonely in years. i cant remember
what its like even. i may enjoy being by myself more than with
anybody i can think of. hmmmmm, thinking it, that all
changes when you "fall in love" and that's kind of fucked up. fucked
up that i would be "happier" being with somebody than when im alone.
i guess that's why that in love feeling is soooo fucking good.
i got my internet communications and very close friends who live
1000's of miles away that i talk to all the time and i like it that
way. oh yeah i forgot, my son lives with me now so there is always
some one close. but even before he moved in i loved my solitude.
also ive always had family relatively close; mother, sister and
father involved in my life. friends? do i have friends? i have
acquaintances. really cool close acquaintances. friends of the
family and relatives are always available to me. i probably take all
this for granted also.
and that may be it, that i take what i have for granted and dont
realize how important it is. shit, sometimes i see it as a burden.
sometimes i see it as a result of my positive personality. sometimes
i feel im taking advantage of a natural human need for
companionship. there are times when i engage with someone knowing it
means way more to them than it does to me, and this could be just
platonic friendship connections. when i do this im very careful not
to do something that would "hurt" them, even accidently.
i know a lot of people who have a hard time with loneliness. its a
major issue with them. some people are very open about it and for
some reason that "need" stimulates me. im not sure how or why, maybe
cause opposites attract. i dont know. maybe cause those kind of
people are more open and communicative about their feelings,
and i know i get off on those deep deep deep intimate conversations.
and once engaged in communicating with someone like that, im always
aware to protect their feelings and respect the relationship. this
builds trust which is a necessary component in the exchange.
february 23, 2009
the academy awards are simply beautiful. the energy of t his show to me
is the best ive seen in years. for sum reason i have issue with beyonce
and i dont really know why but she is really really fantastic. bill
maher hit on the god thing. this bollywood thingy is killing em. the
rhythm of it all. even john legend was fantastic. stunning visually,
gorgeous blues colors and music. just plain wow. queen latifah just
sang behind the memorial piece and wow. watching this show is like
enjoying art. that kind of pleasure. the way the audience is lit and
seated. everybody can see everybody and everybody looks good and sharp
and relaxed but serious. some presenters were nervous, that was good.
the stars themselves were nervous.
im not sure what im doing with the whole atheistwalking.com thing. am i
spoofing the production and marketing industries that i oh so love? by
the creation of it? to duplicate something i "condemn." the
commercialization. maybe im "against" commercialization, but not the
technology of it all. the commercial style of it all. selling out? a
means of income? maintain a life style off it? is that not the goal even
in economically hard times? it is some of my best work style wise and i
already see where its not good and will be better. i love building it.
being creative. to be creative and have a satisfying outlet for the
creativity. to be able to sustain a living doing what you love best wow
wouldnt that be good.
february 10, 2009
i love sully! the flt 1549 pilot's demeanor and explanations of
what happened during the plane crash were not over dramatized or
sensationalized. he told it like it was, "i did my job." "we did
our jobs." asked did he pray he said he knew there were enough
people in the back praying that he didnt. he not only didnt credit
god or a miracle, but he accepted the reality that technology and
his ability were good enough to save the plane and the people's
lives. the pilot and crew are on larry king live right now and not
one of them thank god nor have any of them since the accident.
this is soooo refreshing.
a man taking credit for not only his ability, but mankind's
ability. not making this a battle against evil forces where
humankind needs assistance to sustain himself. recognizing our
abilities
a passanger made a song in tribute to the crew and ofcourse the
words include prayer and heaven. people and media keep wanting to
make this a miracle. but the crew and pilot of the plane have not.
they accept and acknowledge without bragging or swagger that they
accomplished what needed to be done to save themselves. the singer
mentions her faith in god, oh boy. thank you god oh boy. "send
another prayer to heaven" oh boy. faith? what does your faith say
about god letting the plane crash in the first place? what does
your faith say about the fate of the birds? or why god sent the
birds there in the first place? i know its tv and human interest
and that humans rely on god and religion to understand and are
inspired by this. i understand most people will respond positively
to this girls song about god.
but i think in writing this i got to what turns me on most about
all this. seeing a man accepting the credit for his own abilities
and not crediting a higher source. standing proudly and soundly behind
his own ability and accomplishment, without coming off like he is cocky
or bragging. not many people could do that without coming off as
arrogant. i can see how some people would see him as having ego issues,
but that really excited me. to see some one stand confidently behind his
own ability.
the Pittsburgh Steelers are World Champions! that may have been
the best and greatest superbowl ever. my quarterback, who i ihave
questioned for sometime really really stepped up. he played better than
i have seen him play in 2 years. the play calling even early in the game
was the best ive seen from pittsburgh in a long time also. they really
opened up the offense early with solid quaqlity plays with ben rolling
out and throwing downfield. and he was throwing bullet spirals! he even
tried to run for a touchdown which impressed me cause im always
screaming for him to run more. the santanio holmes catch to win it was
maybe the prettiest play in superbowl history. harrison's 100 yd
interception for a touchdown may be the greatest play in superbowl
history.
the pittsburgh steelers have been a deep passion of mine for 37 years
now, since 1972. all i could say before the game was "i love the
pittsburgh steelers." i was truly in love with my team and the moment
and the years ive devoutly followed my beloved. all this energy and
filled my body and brain. it was so good.
not being at the game or in the city was weird for me for a bit. and i
really thought about this alot. this is like a religion to me so where i
watched it and with whom is very important. and i came to a very cool
conclusion to all this thinking. when my other deep passion parliament
funkadelic played my hometown last may, which was another religious
moment for me, i went to the show with nancy, who was my babysitter when
i was young. it was in her house and probably her tape that turned me
on to p-funk to begin with. i went with her and my daughter.
of all the places i could have spent the game yesterday, i was in the
place i most wanted to be. i was with my buddy jesse who i makes
probably the best bbq ribs ive ever had. so i made a request and we
bbq'ed all day saturday in preparation. jesse also has a big screen and
the setting is really cool and relaxed; music, people, internet and
especially a place where i could do my thang. steeler fans in the house
and one good nature cardinal fan to antagonize the moment made it
perfect. had a special moment with trish who've ive known all her life
practically cheering side by side at the top of our lungs in front of
the tv during harrison's td run. good food, good vibe, good people. and
then i remember that brenda, who is jesse's wife, is nancy's sister and
who was also my babysitter. thats how i know jesse. so two of the
biggest moments ive had in the last little while i spent with people who
ive known all my life! sisters who grew up with in ohio 40+ years ago.
also thinking it, for me these moments are best spent away from the
nucleas family. being around my parents or sister, and especially my
kids, changes the whole vibe. i have to play another role and have more
and different responsibilities that for me complicate the vibe. when my
kids are around, i cant stop thinking about them or what they are doing
no matter what is going on. im distracted, either worrying, wondering or
being proud. i am helplessly aware of every movement they make no matter
what i do and i cant help but to react to everything that happens with
them.
this was a really good superbowl game and event. really really good.
even running around inglewood and all the black people there grocery
shopping and stuff was exciting. i love black people.
ive begun filming what im calling a short
feature film. not sure what it really is, but its dramatic and
has a story and a plotline that should end in a twist. im doing this
with the intention to hold the viewers attention and to take them
somewhere away from reality. yeah, so i guess its fiction. im doing
fiction!
im starring in it as a devout christian who is struggling with internal
torment and his beliefs. the working title is "when god calls." what ive
done so far has me really impressed and its coming together beautifully.
and i actually shot some footage in a church before the game yesterday!
choir singing i was really feeling it and at a point it wasnt acting.
this gave me the idea to not act as much anymore, but to actually use
staged scenes that effect me or move me. sure the video is setup and
prepared for, but from now on im gonna try to experience the moment for
real. im a rewarded by my passions. i
have had an unwaivering deep faith in the pittsburgh steelers and
parliament funkadelic for over 30 years each. i became a steeler fan in
1972, in the playoffs that season was arguably the most amazing play in
nfl history; "franco harris's "immaculate reception." we didnt win a
superbowl till 1974 and have since gone on to win more than any other
team in the nfl.
i became a fan of p-funk in 1977 when i heard the song "mothership
connection." the hit for them then was "we want the funk" and to be
honest with you i didnt even like that song as it definitely wasnt the
best on the record. since then p-funk grew to be a major influence in
music and released several major hits since. they continue to tour when
most other bands from that era have faded away. i have also since been
lucky enough to be very close to the organization and the music. the
band and music that i use to dream about in high school study hall 30
years ago.
to make the "right choices" of what to follow. i always remember how
"blessed" i am to have my life long passions continuing to go strong
after all this time. its comforting. it gives me a confidence. these
passions help to define who and what i am. when your young being
associated with something cool, like the music you like and your sports
team is important. now as an adult, when something happens to either of
them other adults are there to point it out to me. they identify these
things with me and i am VERY VERY proud for them to do that. i represent
my passions with a life long deep respect. i have a deep pride in them
and if they were to have not succeed it would be different im sure, but
since they have thrived i have thrived off of that. its like a faith
that brings you a strength.
also my other passion, atheism, is starting to bud into something big.
to be able to celebrate and enjoy my passions is something that is very
special to me. january 31, 2009
where i spend the superbowl is important. more important probably more
than everytime else other than my birthday. let alone of the pittsurgh
steelers are there. so this is special. wasnt sure what i wanted to do.
got an invite to go to sna francisco and it excited me, but was too
costly in time, effort and money. the way this one is gonna turn out
seems to be coming together. can really think of a better place other
than being there or home alone than being here. literally almost. bbqin,
big screen, music, black people.
january 21, 2009 5:45am i power up the television and its on
msnbc, td jakes and other black folk are on morning joe. im 1 minute
into their conversation and it turns to obama's mentioning of the
"non-believers." this is exactly "all i ask for." (lol, im noticing i
have a lot of "alls.") conversation, dialogue and inclusion.
sure obama is headed to the national prayer service. sure we are a
christian nation. thats why i feel its futile to try to change or
eliminate religion. one thing is for sure the faithful are some strong
willed folks and you cant make them do nothing. but i feel that if we
are denied inclusion along side religion by the religious, that is a
different thing...
ok i gotta go....
january 20, 2009 a cnn commentator (i think it was hillary
rosen) just commented that it was nice to have a president who has
rhythm again! oh
this is a good time to be alive for me. it seems the universe is
reflecting back energy and actions that synchronize with my passions
and that gives me deep pleasures. january 20, 2009
the pittsburgh steelers are going to the superbowl!
watching the inauguration i was moved by president obama's
acknowledging of non-believers along side the major religions. 2 days
ago that was all that i asked for, even though there was way too much
god in the ceremony. i wish we would pray, reverend and praise ourselves
for the things we give god credit for. if we would only have one tenth
of the respect we have for and in god for ourselves and humanity... ok,
im not gonna preach. cnn reporter just said "god given promise" "god
given rights," these are not god given, humanity developed these through
millions of years of evolution.
"We are a nation of Christians and Muslims,
Jews and Hindus — and non-believers."
-BARACK O'BAMA
obama scolded us, he told americans that we need to get our act
together. it was a call to action.
biden's big ass bible made me laugh, it loosened my mood. the too much
god in the ceremony was beginning to bug me. its primitive, it's like
embarrassing to me. people around the world laugh at america for its
religiousness. let alone what future generations will look back and
think.
i hope that as long as i make my stand and be noted as one who does not
believe that this will be enough to console me. i also hope that these
primitive beliefs
oh yeah, obama was nervous taking the oath!! that was the cutest
thing!!! its is about time he lost his cool and slipped a bit. obama is
cool, he got that swagger. jill biden is a cutie too.
im very, very happy to have heard obama acknowledge
non- believers in his inaugural address.
-jeffery scott mitchell
january 18, 2009
the
Steelers are beating the ravens 13-0 with about 8 minutes left in
the 2nd quarter in the afc championship game. mr rothlisberger is
throwing the ball better than he has in 2 years. harrison just got hurt,
but walked off. flacco just got sacked. i love the pittsburgh steelers!
ravens punt.
i want to get a few things down in writing. i absolutely love all the
hype over the obama inauguration. u2, beyonce, stevie wonder, user, etc
performed at the lincoln memorial this morning and it made me tear up
more than once. listening to the music that
too much god in the inauguration ceremonies. "god bless you and god
bless america" is the standard sign off. doesnt even seem like they mean
it when they say it, they fire it off out of habit.
newdow filed a suit in the supreme court to have the religious
terminology removed and even though i knew it would be defeated the case
still has to be made. at least to engage the conversation.
atheists should shoot for acknowledgement along side the other religions
when politicians and other folks give "shout outs." not to change
people, not to convert or remove religion, but to be acknowledged along
side of them. form this, i feel the youth and future generations will at
least hear of an alternative belief system.
